maps....

jill scott playing in the background as i skip from one place to another on this long day.

worked this morning. dealt with the usual shit mall of america suburban crowd and helped dressed them in the simple basic my store has to offer. for now chilling at the coffee shop down the street reading over emails until i have to go in and work the door at the bar tonight.

last night just seemed to be another basic night beers at the teener and my favorite after bar of a mcdonald's double quarter with cheese. makes for a good night in my head, but in the morning it is a whole different store.

all i really ponder in my head today is how long i can staying away from some of my vices in life. the self inflicted mental abuse. endless nights of no sleep. sex. the not eating. those things that i turn to when i just want a glimmer of control in my life. kinda sucks that i go to these continually. some more than others. but i really am just trying to stick to this as my only outlet. my main hope for tonight is that it all goes swimmingly. i just kick back, check id's, and go on with my night. no harm. no foul. we will see if that happens, but for now hope is all i got....